I lead an uneventful life. Really, there's nothing too exciting about it. I have a "run of the mill" job, in a "run of the mill" town. We live in a "run of the mill" house. I have the typical 2 kids and a cat. I have a great family, good friends, and lots of happy memories.
I feel incredibly blessed. I think I have conveyed that already, so there's no need to elaborate. I'm not sure how or why I've been so lucky in my "run of the mill" life, but I'm grateful.
The reason I am pondering this lately, is because of 2 other people I know.
Person A is such a special person. Someone who has such a gift for making others smile, making others laugh. Someone you immediately feel comfortable around, someone who can be the life of the party, but doesn't have to be. A terrific parent, a wonderful friend. Someone you can always count on. And yet, Person A is incredible sad right now. Life has dealt a tough hand. Person A is struggling to keep their head above water. There's nothing I can do but be supportive, and my heart aches. If one person doesn't deserve to be unhappy, it's Person A. Someone with so much to offer, so much to give, and who feels so...unappreciated. I know there will be a light at the end of the tunnel, but they can't see it yet. I know that Person A will be a better person because of all of it, but they don't see it yet. And I have NO DOUBT that someday Person A will find someone who does appreciate them, who does value them, but Person A isn't so sure. I wish there was something I could do to speed the process along, to hurry the healing process. But all I can do is sit, and listen, when I'm asked to. I want to say so much, but it's not my place. I have been there before, in a slightly different context, and I know the feelings. That's how I know it will all turn out okay. I just wish, for Person A's sake, that I could make it happen sooner, rather than later.
Then there's Person B.
Sometimes Life is truly unfair.
People are born with innate abilities, inborn talents. Some people are just naturally better at certain things, from Day 1. You say - "s/he was born to do that."
Person B was born to be a parent. And yet, due to the ironies of life, is not. Person B has done everything in their power, everything humanely possible to have a baby, and yet, for some unknown reason, God still shakes his head "no". I sit here and can name off a dozen people who shouldn't have had their kids, who don't treat their kids properly, who don't DESERVE kids, as many people would say, and there's Person B still with a vacant heart, for reasons I can't understand. Again, there is nothing I can do to help. All I can do is sit back and listen, when I'm asked to. If I could give Person B a child, I would. They deserve children and would be such a wonderful parent. If I could surrogate for them, I would. My heart aches for Person B. I wish I could fix it, I wish I could make it better for them.
Both Person A and Person B are your "run of the mill" people. At first glance, you'd never know the struggles they have. And you won't really understand them, unless you've been through it yourself. I can identify partly with person A, but not completely. And I cannot identify with Person B, for which I am both sad, and grateful.
I have been blessed. I don't know why, but I am grateful. The events of late have made me very grateful for my husband and my children, and all of their faults, quirks and shortcomings. Because in spite of all of them, I cannot imagine what it would be like to not have them in my life.
Person A and Person B - my heart aches for you both. I wish I could fix it, wish I could take it all away. All I can do is sit back and listen, when you let me. I'm sorry I can't do more.
Both of you are stronger people then I could ever be. I admire you for your courage and strength, and I know that someday, hopefully sooner than later, that God will nod his head "yes" and answer both of your prayers. No one deserves it more.
- I grew up in a village of 500 people and now live in a beach town of 10 000. Wife to Jeff, Mama to Makenna and Jack. This is my place to share what's up with us, and the place where I sometimes need to pour my heart out about the not so sunshiney moments. This is my happy place. Thanks for stopping by :) Copyright 2012 by Melissa Wormington, that no part of this blog may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, without permission from the publisher.